haha. enough is enough. u'all can call me selfish or bitchy or immature or watever. i just wanna SELFISHLY MOVE ON. so i'm moving my blog to put an IMMEDIATE STOP to all this shit. moving to somewhere out of reach of the ppl who thinks they r doing me a favour by hurting me. it's time to let go. if there's anything i've learnt at all from you... is that wat's not meant to be will not be no matter how hard u try.
i'm giving up.
the rest of u.. pls contact me or ppl who already know to get my new url. n pls DO NOT LINK ME. at least not for the time being....... thank u.
hUitiNg stRange... 3/16/2006 07:19:00 AM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
okok i tink alot off ppl dying to know if i'm ok.. i tell u'all wat i did today ba! haha
firstly.. read blogs in the morning. sadded(ernest copyright). beavan called. sadded(ernest copyright) too. HAHA.(i'm laughing at the ernest copyright..not cuz i'm sad..) ok yah. then nvm.. went to meet mab. went for mac breakfast at singpost! yayNESS(erNESS copyright) hahaha. then went to cchs! YAYNESS(EC new definition = ernest copyright) ahahas. then stoned n listen to them rehearse for concert... soooooooooooooo nice. they can b nice if they want to lo. hahaha. then like.. quite happy.. cuz really miss singing n all that.. as in singing in a CHOIR. it's juz dfferent from singing alone. =) n reuben is still saddist n bian tai as ever.. HAHA. but that's wat makes everyone sing nicely ironically! ^^ ok yeap. blahblahblah. lj n pinks came too! :)
went to toapayoh after that with lj n mab.. met hx ernie shuwen bert. kbox!! hahaha. SO NICE!!!!!! really enjoyed myself jumping arnd like crazy! ahahas. n like so long nv sing le. although i kp singing out of tune n i know it's very nan ting. but nvm. i get to vent my frustrations! lalala. YAYNESS(EC). ahahas. but lj they'all ALL bully meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ='( hahaha. win liao loooooo. ok nvm. heck care.. i still had my share of fun!!! thanks my dear frens for cheering me up!! ^^
ok abt jieru n yk.. actually i'm ok with it la. i kind of expected it oso.. so i'm like quite immune to it oso. same goes for beavan. haha. so surprising rite? but yah. we have both grown stronger these few wks le. n besides.. we all know how they r meant for each other n how we r SO NOT meant for each of them respectively! so yah. no hard feelings la.. juz gif them blessings n blah. those ke tao stuff. hahaha.
actally.. i tink of the 4 of us.. ok say 3 first la.. me, yk, gaigai. of the three of us.. i tink i'll b the happiest for NOW. haha. i dun mean to spite u'all or wat hor..dun get the wrong idea! but yea.. u haf each other for now.. n i guess that means alot to u'all n enough for u'all for now.. like gaigai says, simple n happy. haha. but i still tink after i broke up with him i gained the most. i got not juz one person supporting me.. i got MANY frens who stayed by my side n gave me strength. i know now for SURE who are my bestest friendS. ppl who stand up for me n r there for me, n believe in me.. have faith in me. n encouraged me on all the while. n r always there for me when i need a listening ear n am feeling down. ppl who lemme hug them when i'm feeling miserable. frens whom i noe wun hurt me.. =) also, i have new frens who i nv knew wld cared so much if i didn't break up with him.. like beavan for one! i'm glad we helped/are still helping each other tide through this whole thing.. i hope we will still remain frens! n hopefully u find more GIRLFRIENDS. wahaha. then u can stop irritating me MUAHAHA. :p n oso debbie n clara, whom i know wun b reading this.. but nvm. they r my pillars of strength at work! :) YAYNESS!!(EC!) ^^
ok for beavan.. i tink u're not at the losing end either! ^^ at least u find out now that u'all r not meant for each other.. then u can both be free to pursue the ppl really meant for u! :) i tink gaigai is rite.. u will eventually find the RIGHT gal for u! though that certainly doesn't mean u hafta b THAT despo for now LOL. but yeap. if u still feel sad.. juz drop me a call. i said DROP ME A CALL, NOT A SMS TO ASK ME TO CALL. lol. we both have free incoming i know.. but u dun hafta b so mean n make me call all the time. hahaha.
ok gaigai.. erm i'm still abit bewildered by wat's happened. but nvm.. i know u r old enough n experienced n mature to know wat u want.. altho i duno wat u r thinking at all frankly speaking hahaha. but nvm la. i oso duno wat's yk thinking.. that's yk u'all r tog... hahahha. ok i dun mean to sound so mean. but u get the idea rite? nvm.. i tink beavan will get it.. hahaha. but yeap. be happy! make sure u dun regret le ok.. =)
ok lastly to yk the jerk.. as the name still appears on my hp when u call... "Yk The Jerk Calling..." which i find it quite funny now hahaha paiseh. i duno wat's happening to u since i duno wat's happening to gaigai too hahaha. (double get the hint? haha) ok but point is.. go ahead n love her with all u have.. dun disappoint 3ppl again.. i'll be fine i promise(not that u will care zzz.. n dun say u will cuz that will add on to the long-enough-already list of lies u have toldn..) hahaha. yeap. i've come to terms with the fact that u really love her more than u love/likeD(zzz) me. n like i said.. after how u treated me.. i'm immune to it already now. haha. thanks nwae for offering to bring yunxue out to play with me.. but yeap. i tink it'll b kinda weird. n i dun wanna b kidnapped nwae.. hahaha. dun tink she remembers me nwae.. zzz. k la.. duno wat to say oso le.. but yeap. sad to say..ur name will remain as Yk The Jerk forever in my contact list. haha paiseh. wat's done cnnt undone le. =(
ok i'm done! :)
hUitiNg stRange... 3/14/2006 09:56:00 PM
haha happy day! =)
blog again another day.. talking on the phone..
hUitiNg stRange... 3/14/2006 09:18:00 PM
bleahhhhhh. somebody enlighten me about wat's happening? why's everything getting more complicated everyday?? =X i wanted to call so many ppl last nite! wanted to call gaigai ask her wat happened n stuff..but figured she'll b talking to beavan.. wanted to call beavan see if he's alright..but figured he'll b talking to gaigai.. wanted to call him..but i dun tink he'll want to talk to me n i duno wat to talk about also n besides huiyu says he's alright... so yea. i still ended up talking to huiyu. -_-'''
bleahhhhhhh. saddedddddddddddd. why's everything so complicated... when's beavan coming back? why the hell does he sound so depressed?? n ok watever made him gave up i guess the idea is there.. but i nid to get the whole clear picture.. n gaigai may i know wat actually happened last nite? did u changed ur mind too? bleahh. i know i have no business in this..but i'm juz worried for all my frens involved. bleahh. =(
why's everyone sadddddddd??? =[
hUitiNg stRange... 3/14/2006 07:47:00 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
ok am feeling so much better after reading my friendster testimonials! hahaha. it's nice to know that at such a rotten time when everything is screwed up, u still have ppl who appreciate u so much n care for u.. ppl whom u matter to, or once mattered to.. whether u have now drifted apart from them! yay~ at least i can say i'll rmb these ppl for life. =)
hUitiNg stRange... 3/13/2006 08:08:00 PM
wooo. my blog got new song! haha.. not very new la.. but juz suddenly like it. yay~
hmmm yeap. not in a very gd mood today.. but nvm.. i'll survive! hahaha.
oh yah.. chatted with ada on the phone last nite.. cool. super long nv talk to her le.. yay~ =)
chatted online with yt today morning b4 gg off to work.. then she brightened my day! haha. cuz.. she thanked me for this thing that i did long ago which i dun even rmb.. but she still rmbs... n is so grateful for it. haha. isn't it amzing how a little thing u do to help others sometimes u dun even realise u're helping but they rmb such things for life? :)
