Saturday, December 18, 2004
surprise surprise... so much can happen in one night! ^^
hmmm okaes.. went for mab's xmas carolling @ SGH.. tt idiotic gal made me go last min.. and no0ne pei me go la.. so ended up i hafta go alone lohx.. like..so nice of her right? :) haha.. then i reach there liao then she call me and say.. i tink u cnnt come in lehx... -_-''' hahaha... okaes.. thnk goodness clarified later tt ALL ARE WELCOME. -dia0x- yeapx. so went in.. and gang hao gg to start le.. so i juz plopped myself on a corner seat.. then this aunty came up frm behind and "xiao mei mei.. wo ke yi gen ni zuo ma?" then i like.. uh ok... then she started rantling on and on and on abt the hosp staff very bad.. how she used to be an ex-patient blahblahblah.. then still ask me go down and see a stranger after tt..coz the leg amputated then no relatives and blah very kelian.. =X ermx yea.. then i okay-ed it lohx.. then there's this part of the concert they got down and asked ppl up to sing along... tt monkey of a gk pulled me up... -_-''' hahaha... btw.. pt to note..cchms ppl are still the most expressive... wahaha~ and gk's still like b4...voice so distinct among the rest... lolx. :p erm yea.. nwae.. yeapx. the aunty kept complaining to me.. hahaha... then i juz hmmm hmmm ahh ahh ya noe... =X okaes.. then after tt she pulled my hand all the way to the lift lobby then go down to the 3rd floor and all the way into the amputated person's room? eh..ok.. the person really quite kelian la... :( hmmm so they talk talk talk and i hmmm hmmm ahh ahh awkward smile again... then i tink the nurse quite experienced de lah... she came over and asked.. "u student or working de?" then i told her student lohx... haha then she very clever... "i'm sure u're very busy and haf something on later right?" then initially i like quite surprised la.. then like quickly yahyahyah.... hahaha.. then she tell me to faster say bye and go liao... hahaha.. -diaox- so the aunty went along wif me and cont' complaining... =X yea~ then finally she went home and i went to look for mab dearie... hahaha... yang they'all still as joke as ever... hahaha... and they like heard ppl singing bday song so sing along..then still initiate the chi malay canto ver... -_-''' hahaha.. then finish singing le then they realise tt the bday guy is bu ren shi de... wahahahah~ =X okaes... yeapx. so went home and hahaha... very funny.. gk mab me kept singing cchms songs you mei you? wahahaha~ ok but at least we sang awhile only la.. but after tt this whole grp of ppl..ermx oso frm their choir de lahx... started singing LOUDLY those christmas carols... hahaha... then like the rest of the choir ppl was like trying to hide... wahahhaa~ so tt nite.. the people of outram mrt station enjoyed free christmas carolling and a sneak preview of syf set piece~ lol. -_-'''
hahaha... yea reached home.. and yea.. ate all tt... sms-ed... cried.. called and cried summore... yeapx. but i'm alright now... happy lil' girl... :)
hUitiNg stRange... 12/18/2004 08:59:00 AM
Friday, December 17, 2004
blehx. okaes... it's the season of misunderstandings... hahaha...
hmmm yea.. to yk.. yeapx. thanx for clarifying tt... ermx not tt i'll change my mind or sumthing.. but bcoz mab says in her blog tt shldn't say things to spite each other and blah... ermx juz to let u noe.. i'm not saying anithing to spite anione.. i'm juz saying how i feel... :)
hUitiNg stRange... 12/17/2004 03:11:00 PM
o0h h0o~ ppl thanx for all the huggies!! heex... so0o0o0o0 happy!! :)
hmmm... nwae.. was so excited tt i cld finally tag yuyu dear dear's board..so gaf her a whole load of excited crap rubbish.. then when i refreshed again and wanted to start typing serious stuff... i can't tag again... -_-''' okaes.. so i shall write here... hahaha...
hmmm.. i dunno and i dun care whether he meant wat he said la... but yea..i totally disagree wif it... i dunno wat's his concept of bgr.. but the way he put it sounded tottally and horribly wrong... hmmm... but then.. nvm.. if u can find anione who thinks the same way as u and dun mind wrong tog.. then go ahead lo... =X hmmmm yea.. ttz all i hafta say...
eh i'm not blaming anione or wat... but juz tt i made the same mistake of building a relationship based w/o love for my 1st time.. and i wasn't very happy.. so like.. hope others wun like me oso... okok.. dun say le.. =X
hmmm... but i wan to share MY own view... hmmm... companionship is very impt for a bgr ttz undeniable la.. but then tt doesn't mean tt a relationship can be built solely on trust companionship respect and blahblahblah. like.. i see all these factors in my good friends..does tt mean i have to become bisexual and get attached to all of them? hmmm no right? i tink a relationshp shld sprout with love... it's the most impt factor.. and hmmm... i know this sounds stupid.. but there shld b a special chemistry btw the 2 of u tt u can't find in other ppl.. hmmm... this is getting abit messy... =X eh.. love as in you really love the person for juz who he or she is.. like ermx..sounds cliche.. but it's true.. u duneed a reason to love sumone..coz when u love him or her..they juz naturally become perfect in your eyes...and u learn to accept everything they offer... that's the true beauty of love... :) eh the chemistry i talking abt is like.. a special bond tt both of u share.. like u somehow know how the person thinks and feel even when they dun tell you.. so sometimes you juz stone in comfortable silence..but after that everything juz becomes alright. yea~ it's tt magical.. :) at least to me... =X and the rest of the trust respect companionship and blah.. it all comes into the picture naturally if u love the person enough... yea~ :)
haha... ok.. so much so for bgr.. everybody's starting to blog abt it.. =X okaes hope i didn't made it sound too........ =X
hmmmm nwae... was quite hurt and angry today morning.. like before tt still happily talking and blah.. like at last clear certain stuff and more stable le.. but after that the idiot hafta rantle on and on abt the bdae present thingy so i juz got fed up and hung up. period. serious AP man.... -_-''' haish.... watever la...
hUitiNg stRange... 12/17/2004 10:34:00 AM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
yea~ juz sent mab dearie home.. haha .. went to meet her after her choir at wsands.. then got abit bored juz walking arnd.. so juz came my hse lohx... hee.. so nice toking and fooling anrd like before... ^^ heex... then tok abt alot of thngs.. haha.. 2 troubled ppl... hmmm..
she juz kept psychoing me to change my mind and go wif my own feelings... hmmm watever la~ everything not confirmed yet nwae... both of them are getting pretty weird nwae... =X nvm... hmmm notting much to say.. thanx mab for the day! :)
yeapx. then hmmmm hahaha... i got violent protests to mk.. but mab say i shld juz keep mum abt them... hahaha.. ok so maybe i'll tok abt them sumwhere else... hahahha... wonder why i'm keeping a blog for... -_-'''
hUitiNg stRange... 12/16/2004 05:55:00 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
hmmm... class chalet over at last.. quite fun lahx.. but then... haish... quite heavy-hearted throughtout the 3days.. ttz why was like so sian1/2 all the time and then hardly did much... bleahx. excuses... =X
mahjong bridge mahjong bridge mahjong bridge. hahaha... ttz basically how time rotted away... lol.
1st night was mahjong and bridging.. yea.. i'm proud to announce tt i'm a pro at bridge... hahaha.. juz look at the way i shua gaigai bahbah and yk... n u'll noe... wahahahah~ i really luff a full 5min non-stop until i cry... =D then vincent called to chat wif yuyu n me.. then juz walk arnd chatting wif kacuah's hp... -_-''' heex... then walked to the beach there... so0o0o0o0 nice! hahaha... the sea breeze so nice lahx! ^^ hahaha... actually i tink is landbreeze.. but then it's erm.. hai feng ya noe... -.-" okaes nwae... then kenna pranked by 'ghosts'... hahaha... -diaox- i shall not comment.. =X hahaha... then yea cont' chatting until i fall aslp at arnd 5... hahaha... juz dumped the phone to yuyu... :p then hmmm.. woke up in less than an hr's... cldn't really slp.. hmmm.. yeapx.. then watched them feed mosquitoes and play mahjong outside the room for awhile.. -.-" hahaha.. yeapx. then uh went for a walk with huiyu... 2 sad ppl.. =( oh well.. at least there's sumone to tok wif... thanx gal. :) yea~ then left at dunno wat time and she came my hse to bathe n blah.. yeapx. then sumthing maluating happened which isn't exactly worth mentioning here nwae... hahaha... =X okaes then yupx. slpt until 2+ then went back to the chalet... hahaha... majority of them at wildwildwet... then only kacuah giving chess tut to bahbah in the room.. hahaha... then ernie came.. then uhx.. bahbah went to slp.. we played mahjong for awhile.. then see like no drinks left so decided to go buy drink and go for walk lohx.. then 4 of us went wsands... hahaha... then like super hilarious.. like so excited abt mixing blue pepsi ice with red pepsi fire... hahaa... then ernie was joking that the drink will turn purple.. then we went back to the chalet and try de shi hou really purple la~ lol. -_-''' hmmm then when walking back was like took the longer route i tink.. cutting thru' the park.. heex.. then sang until super loudly... heex.. ^^ the feeling's so0o0o nice juz blasting like nobody's business... hahaha.. then mab dearie came back frm hk at alst and called... chatted super long too.. then decided to meet her coz we missed each other so00o0o much and got so much to say... heex... then huiyu and ernie came along! ^^ hahaha... damn funny... :p yeapx. nwae.. juz realied tt ernie actually gives pretty insightful comments when it comes to love... wahahaha~ so kan bu chu la... :p lol. nwae.. yeapx. then went back and slacked arnd abit until midnight lidat... yuyu n i went to the beach again... was like both damn sad gg to cry lidat liaox.. hahaha... then juz go there and chui hai feng lohx... hee... n guess wat... we saw STARS!!! yea~ my fav... heex.. yesh stars... millions of them... i mean..not like i never see stars before lahx.. but really ALOT of them this time lohx... and so beautiful like right above u.. haha.. was so happy and xing fu juz gazing up at them lidat.. and summore like no buildings or watever blocking the view... heex... :) then went back and bridged with ernie and bahbah... then siong toon yk gaigai having mahjong battlefield mahx... hahaha... then yk super hilarious la.. he touched the tile and then shout until so loud "hoseh ah" then everyone we tot he hu already or sumthing.. then he like "eh.. mo cuo le.." wahahahahha~~ really luff until pengz la... hahaha... and tt stupid bahbah... anyhow touch me!! wa lau eh..... pretend swap tt stupid fly only lohx... ARGH. I WAN TO PROTEST!! lau tee ko.... :'( and ppl i'm nt crazy jumping abt coz of tt damn fly.. i was jumping abt coz i was trying to get away frm bahbah's grip!!!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew. ='( then went to walk walk with ernie and yuyu again... hahaha... then saw this gang doing their cheer or sumthing... hahaha.. so interesting.. i actually tot their cheer was cute when it's supposed to b scary or sumthing... hahaha... -_-''' nwae.. yeapx. they abit tipsy i tink then walk until fell down... =X hahaha.. yeapx. then went abck and tried to slp abit... yeapx. then hmmm yah.. lidat lohx. quite sleepless actually.. kept waking up.. then cleaned up the place abit then left early... hmmm yah. haish... =X
tink i left quite a fair bit of misunderstandings uncleared... dunno... dun tink i'm going to bother clearing them nwae... am too tired... quite saddening the way things are turning out.. :( tink i'm not gg to tk tt risk... yeapx. made up my mind le.. it's affecting too many ppl.. so i'm not even going to think abt it... period.
:(
hUitiNg stRange... 12/15/2004 09:16:00 PM
Monday, December 13, 2004
hmmm... gg chalet later le.. prob wun be blogging for arnd 2days... hmmmm.
finally the feeling of hurt is sinking in. it all runs in a circle doesn't it? when u hurt someone u'll in turn get hurt by someone else too... juz like the vicious cycle of poverty.. -_-''' but it's true... you can't give someone the happiness they want and neither can someone else give you the happiness you want... hmmm yea.. you probably tink i'm juz rantling on and on again. haish.. nvm.. =X
nwae... all this is progressing too fast... i nid time to take a breather. sort out my thinking. what do i really want?
hUitiNg stRange... 12/13/2004 09:33:00 AM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
hmmm... this probably ain't gg to mk u feel any better.. but all the same.. i wan to say i'm sorry... and yea.. thanx for the 17days.. :)
blehx. bad things always come in 2... okaes.. maybe the 2nd one isn't exactly bad... but then... hmmmm....... =X haish...
hUitiNg stRange... 12/12/2004 11:33:00 AM
