Thursday, March 10, 2005
yea m happy with all my frens and blah.. contented with life and all tt.. but bleahhh. when will i ever get the chance to do e things i like to do? hmmmms.
jc life sux. it's all too packed and tiring and overwhelming.. the only nice thing u find in jc is the frens yea? hahaha. bleahhhhhhhhh. i wan time. i wan freedom. i wan direction. to guide me.. do the things i ought to be doing.. find an answer.. why i'm doing all the crap stuff now.. and not doing i wat i truly want.. i'm juz contented.. according to dar contented is a neutral term.. i wan to be happy... bleahhhhh. eeeeeeeeeeeeeks. why did i ever cum to sa.. i mean..i shld haf gone to poly.. hahaha. yay~ bleahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
okok study le laa... finish grumbling liao still hafta return to reality.. study study study. ok i'm glad tt at least i've met u ppl.. the class.. the dans.. and of cuz u.. =) hmmmms. haha.shall mk u guys suffer with me... muahaha.
hUitiNg stRange... 3/10/2005 08:49:00 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
hmmms. sorryyyyyyyyy. bleah. seriously very sorry... hmmm guess sum things i really dun understand. bleahz. dunno why i lidat oso.. like so.... hmmm impatient? dunno wat u call tt? juz tt so many thngs chunk tog.. suddenly not doing well in anything at all.. i'm failing academically.. failing at interpersonal relationships.. EVERYTHING. argh. getting worked up and fired n all tt very easily.. bleahz. sorry guys.. hmmm if i offended u in the past few days sorry kaes? didn't meant for it to b lidat.. =( haish..
hmmm yea.. all the same thanx for making my day all the same.. dar and yuyu and pork and everyone else.. gaigai for dearest jackjack! ^^ yeapz. thanx for calling up and chatting with me ytd nite.. felt better after chatting with dar.. juz venting out everything then listening to him after tt.. =) then msg-ing fishsee jiejie n how she called after tt.. and chatted until 1am like last time.. ahahas. like laughed the whole night away then appeared in sch like a zombie the nxt day... ahahahs. fishsee jiejie = bao mu aka tai jian... baoxiu jiejie = gong nu aka nai niang... wahahahha~~ LOL. yea.. whether is nainiang or bao mu... all the same.. thanx for looking after me todat @ hbf! and for yuyu..entertaining me during all the breaks.. lolx. yay~ ahahas. so nice.. everyone feeding me and making me feel so... princess? lols. watever's the word for it.. ahahas. taitai's life.. i'm getting one step nearer hahaha.. juz sit there wait for my lovely sisters to feed me! ahahas. :p
yay~ on the way back from hbf.. dar n i saw gaigai @ breadtalk~!! ahahah~ she gaf me jackjack bread!!! wheeeeee~ ahahhas!! JJ baby... lols. yay~~
thanx ppl.. although had a not very nice time during tut n blah.. at least u'all still arnd to make my day... =)
bleah... i miss mab dearie! =(
hUitiNg stRange... 3/09/2005 07:52:00 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
bleahh. so watever lo.. every other day ppl juz cum up to me n tell me that i dun understand wat they r going thru'' bleahhhhhhhhhh. watever~ doesn't mean that ppl r not gg thru' wat u r gg thru' then they dun understand u.. not everything works out this way laa.. n certainly doesn't mean that when ppl r not gg thru' wat u r gg thru' now means tt they have not gone thru' wat u r gg thru' now before... bleah. yea ignore me if u dun understand but yea. the idea is there.. n it certainly doesn't mean tt wat u r gg thru' is always worse than wat u tink others haf gone thru'.. ok so true tt u can't compare case to case.. but tt doesn't juz mean tt others dun understand u.. n it's not always a matter of perception tt affects wat u tink ppl are saying.. the past is over n it's clearly OVER. but if u choose to continue dwelling in it n make urself miserable by assuming everything said AND assuming u're the only one feeling tt way cuz others dun understand u then u're nv gonna climb up. never again. period. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm gg crazy. okaes. shall blog abt nicer things.
yea~ happy 3wks. yea was abit pissed initially but yea.. ok la i was kicking up a fuss.. so dropped the whole issue n went out after sch to haf fun.. bleahz. hahaha yea went to sengkang again... ahahas. ate @ kfc then juz studied until almost 6 then went home le lo... yay~ *sense of accomplishment* ahahahs. dunno why i went to sch.. no pe no gp.. 1st 8periods break.. ahahas. n 4periods spent watching the guy play bball.. lolz. hmmm yea juz watching n stoning n blah n walking arnd can actually make u tink alot.. ahahhas. yea~ then the last 2 periods went reading room with yuyu n gaigai.. supa tired la.. so slpt awhile then woke up awhile b4 bell rang n did tut! wo0 h0o~ yay~ so nice after slping then fresh liao then do tut.. ahahas. yea the rest duneed to mention liao.. i mean..not much events worth mentioning yea.. =X
k shall end here.. hope i'm not harsh again as usual.. yea i'm always harsh.. watever.. but nobody seems to b getting my point nowadays.. mayb i juz turned into an alien. or mayb i'm juz getting impatient. watever~ -_-'''
hUitiNg stRange... 3/08/2005 09:35:00 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY
If you see me walking on the road with
someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to
walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the
time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me
fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..
Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..
"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
walk
beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the
beauty that
stand before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear
your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch
you,
It was because you never gave me the
chance
You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...
WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...
SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE..
hUitiNg stRange... 3/07/2005 09:47:00 PM
hahah okaes. betta blog quick!! so many things haven't done!! hehe
okaes. i'm juz gonna flip ani moment laa... i do my tut i do my tys i listen to lectures and i still fail my test. arghhhhhhhhhh. wth la. dun understand wat's wrong with me.. i noe how to do de mah.. ok sum tys qns mayb dunno.. but yea.. at least i tried? bleahh. watever~ dunno la.. tt time rigid bodies dar coached me was so happy! after tt cld do almost all the rest of the qns laa... eeeeeeeks. wat's wrong with me?? belah. =(
ok nvm dun tok sad things le hahaha.. hmmms. had a great day today!! ^^
uhhhh let's see....
hmmm maths lec was fun.. hahaha. lpw lec was eating stuff behind.. n like the guys bot potato chips and all tt la.. woa~ hahaha.. then had a mini party behind.. ahahas. then the guys talk until very funny as usual laa~~ hahaha entertaining.. at least lidat lec not boring.. ahahas. then i dunno wat's dar's prob looooo suddenly go n poke me then i jumped... then siong they'all kp saying liao loooo... hahaha =X okaes n wat's the best part of all? LPW NV CATCH ME!!! wahhahaha~ yay!
lol kk.. thenbreak all tt also v fun.. hehe.. juz fooled arnd as usual bahx.. :p ok then i actually found gp quite alright! wo0 h0o.. but still abit blur abt the AQ... ahahhas. =X watever~ n i dunno where's my vj compre... ahahahs. muz remind me go find sumone pls... hahaha thanx.. :)
yay~ then chem tut kenna ostracised by the 2 of them lolx. dunno wat's my prob hahah tis time really nv dp anithing wrong.. only thing wrong is fabian is nt as angellic as he seemed last wk.. ahhaha!
PE!!!!!!!! rollerblading!! waaaaa.... i kept falling down laaa... n i dunno wear so much protective gear for wat laaa i fall only on my butt.. not elbows not knees not wrists... yea only butt. eeeeeks. hahaha n my butt's damn painful now. fell on it 3times. 2times pulled dar along. ooops. sorry.. -blushes- hahah okaes.. then uhh yay.. thanx to all who helped in one way or another too!! hahaha so touched.. realised tt everyone's so nice!! hehe.. all teach me this n tt then help support me all tt.. esp. the guys!! hahah they always like joking joking laugh and all tt but actually always help de.. wheee~ yay~ suddenly realise i'm so fortunate everyone's so0o0o ncie! wahhaha~tink i getting abit far-fetched... =X
hahah ok nvm.. yay so reached home late looooo... 8+ then now hafta do work liao or else gonna die a beautiful death. wo0o0o h0o0oo0~ yea~ thanx dar for being so thoughtful.. :) hehex... yea.. n thanx all my frens for making my day! yay~ ^^
hUitiNg stRange... 3/07/2005 09:26:00 PM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
bleahhhhhhhh. i'm bored to tears. dun even feel like studying for test.. n i haven't even done aq.. bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz.
ahahhas. was watching the vampire show ytd.. then so coolx la~ ma xiao ling wears a MINI SKIRT for her wedding!! waaaaa~~ i oso wan!!! hahahah... yay~ i love mini skirts.. yea~~ haha might as well mah.. since i look a nightmare in long long skirts.. might as well wear mini skirts... wahhahaha.. tink i'm gg crazy.. the aftermaths of polar coordinates. muahaha. yay~~ i wan wear mini skirt for weddinggggggg. hahaha okaes wait til sumone wants me =X
lalalalala~~ can i NOT STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYY. eeeeeeeeeeks. i dun wan studyyyyyyyyyyyyy. can i quit sch? hehex. realise my old habit is coming back again. haha last time sec sch i very funny de.. got this habit of studying alt. years.. sec1 study sec2 slack then sec3 pia n sec4 slack again... wahahhaa... cuz like u study so hard for 1 yr liao then like tired to pia liao ma so muz rest a yr.. then u rest until kao so lan liao then die la die la cnnt lidat.. then start to pia again... hahha n the vicious cycle continues.. hehe.. yea~ but now is more yan zhong le.. change to alt. wks le.. hahah n i tink i pia-ed quite hard for last wk le so i shall rest this wk... wahhahaha. weird theory. but might as well ma this wk slack = nxt wk will pia... hahah means i will pia while studying for block tests! yay~~
anyone disagress tt i'm crazy muz b crazy urselffffffffff. wo0o0o0o h0o0o0o0o0o. sumone entertain me plssssssssssssssssss. -diaoz-
hUitiNg stRange... 3/06/2005 11:38:00 AM
