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Saturday, June 04, 2005

The guy who love you, can't tell you the
reason
why he love you. he only knew that, in his eyes,
you are the only one

The guy who love you, actually always make you
mad, but he do never know what stupid thing did
he done, as everything he done, is for your own
good.

The guy who love you, seldom praise you , but in
his heart, you are the best, only he know it,

The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if
you din't reply his message but others, because
he cares.

The guy who love you , Only drop his tears in
front
of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are
touching his heart , the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you , will remember every word
u
said , even its accidentally. and he will use the
word always at the nick of time.

The guy who love you, will not give any promise
that easily, because they don't want to break the
promise, they want you to believe him and they
want to give you the happiest and safest life ever
after.

The guy who love you, always tell you not to think
too much, because they already plan it for you, he
want to give u the best life in the future, he want
to give you a suprise, belive him that he can do it.

The guy who love you, maybe can't remember
speciall occasion like somekind of anniversary,
but , he do know that, every second he live, he's
loving you, no matter what day is today

The guy who love you, won't said " i love you" that
easily, because everything he done for you is
showing that he love you already, but only he will
tell the word at the special situation, because he
dun wan u to misunderstand, he want u to know
that he love you.

The guy who really love you, will feel that,
sometimes, something hav to tell for only once,
because he thought that u might already
understand him, if talk so much, he will feel that
theres nothing you will cherish.

The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetch
you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you
darling like what you expect. but he will carry your
ludgage and ask you " why are you becoming that
thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you,
when you are mad, and when you finished, he will
said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier .
with smile.

The boy who love you, don't know that whether
he should call you when you are angry, but he will
sent a message to you after few hours, if you ask
him why he call that late, he will said, when you
are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But
when you calm down, my explanation will only
really works.

The boy who love you, always call you little girl,
but everytime he want to make a big decision, he
will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy
bear, but he will always put the bear you gift him at
his bed.

The guy who love you, while quarelling, he will
apologize uncontrollably, althought you are the one
who's wrong, and later, he will sent a message to
you with " baby, actually you know its your fault,
you know it urself "

The guy who love you, while really miss you, he
will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you
stupidly under your apartment.but he never
knows , what he bought is daisy, but doesn't
matter, because in his heart, that's roses.

The guy who love you, seldom said sweet words,
but you know, his kisses already transfer his all
passion to you.

The guy who love you , if he can't always see
you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to
have any time to remember you, because he
knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until
he could do nothing.

hUitiNg stRange... 6/04/2005 08:10:00 PM

bleah. win le lo0o0o0o. beginning of yr my cousin told me rabbits tis yr got bad luck.. then i didn't really took it seriously... haha ok now i believe it... but how cum only i bad luck de.. so stupid.. ok nvm.. self-consolation.. muz b only cute rabbits haf bad luck.. MUAHAHA. ok so bhb =X

ahahas. yea.. went to see western doc finally... the doc see my xray.. say they took the x-ray incomplete.. nv show the front part of my leg.. then he see swell until lidat v serious le.. then refer me to cgh a&e.. yea so stupid.. n its like 9+ already... so yea.. went there.. put on a wheelchair so tt i could dump the crutches.. so yea waited.. saw e nurse.. then the doc.. sent me for another xray... went back to the doc.. then she say got hairline fracture... -_-''' okaes dear was rite.. tt time rite at the beginning when i juz fall then haven't went doc he was worrying later is hairline crack.. ok win liao lo.. dear if u dunno wat to do nxt time.. go b a doc! muahaha. okaes so out of pt.. so yea.. waited for the nurse to get ready n blah.. watched her cut the plaster of paris... haha.. was like "what's tt?" "oh ur cast lo.. they call it plaster of paris.." ok i feel so cheated... the nurse said plaster of paris so friendly-ly... then when she bandaged n all tt for me... omg. the thing started drying n blah. n it was like damn hard n damn heavy n damn itchy inside!! n like cnnt scratch... =X then its like burning like dunno wat de gan jue.. then after tt you suddenly so cold... eeeeeeeeeeeks. the person who invented this thingy is such a psychopath... eeeeeeeeeeks. n the nurse cheated my feelings..say until so nice lidat!! =(

okaes.. so now i'm on tt stupid damn heavy cast for 2wks b4 seeing the orthopedist... eeks. n it's so heavy n hard tt i cnnt even hop or crawl anymore.. =( n like 2 weeks laaa... dammit laaa... 2 whole wks lehx.. cnnt go out cnnt jump cnnt walk cnnt do anithing... eeks. wat the hellllllll.... =( haish.. so watever laaa... n the worst thing is tt it almost reaches my knee... so it's super big n super heavy n super hard n blah.. ok i'm juz repeating... =X

bleah. it's the hols. n all i can do is study. eeeeeeeeeeks. sucks man... i'm gonna b stuck at home for like 2 bloody weeks. argh. ok the only happy thing is i duneed go gp if he calls us back. bleah. i rather get out of the hse n go see bahbah. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. !@#$!@$!#$%#!#@$#!^# =X

hUitiNg stRange... 6/04/2005 06:33:00 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

ok i dun really noe if i shld type tis.. =X

there's tis gal i juz got to noe when i entered sajc.. she struck a very deep impression on me the first few times we talked. right from the beginning, i dunno why..but somehow.. she seemed to me the most magnanimous fren i ever had.. she doesn't bear grudges.. and she's always willing to help out the ppl arnd her.. even if it means gg all out of her way.. and i have never ever seen her lose her temper.. i really liked her alot.. her cheerfulness.. her generosity.. and her willingness to care for all the frens arnd her.. whether they r her close frens or juz acquaintances. so time goes by n we got to work tog in a grp.. she was always ready to help out others after she finished her own share of work.. n even when she was tired.. she wld stay up late online n accompanied me while i finish my share of work.. i guess tt was the time we started becoming real close. i was juz very attracted to her i guess. n she always try to cheer me up when i'm sad n all tt.. listening ear n advice-giver....a very good one. =)

then one day.. a classmate came up to me n told me tt alot of the class ppl didn't liked her. i was baffled. i really couldn't understand why.. n i tot the reasons my classmate gave were rubbish. all nonsense.. i refuse to believe anything.. she was still a perfect fren to me. so i dismissed everything my classmate said n didn't mentioned it anymore.

n later.. she started falling for a guy. but everything wasn't smooth. it was sweet when it all started..but later it started to turn sour.. i tot the guy was an idiot. he didn't deserved the love of someone as good as her. but nevertheless..she continued falling in.. n so many times she got hurt. n so many times she didn't gave up. i tot she was brave..n tis was something new i admired abt her..

the unhappy misgivings within the class continued unknowingly meanwhile. this time..it wasn't kept in the dark anymore. many no longer bother to hide their unhappiness. i tink she sort of sensed it too.. but noone ever really mentioned it to her too. then tt classmate came up to me again.. it seemed to serious to b ignored this time.. i started to realise some of wat he said were true too.. but it was only after everything started falling apart for her.. when her goodness wasn't appreciated time n again..she started to lose her patience and all.. she started to flare up very easily n it became difficult trying to talk to her at times.. then the next day, my classmate juz told her everything... it came as a shock to her..esp. when her own relationship matters were sinking into a deep pit at the same time.. tt was the first time i ever saw her so depressed.. after tt day.. i hardly saw her smile or laugh genuinely again. the bubbly her was gone..

i guess she couldn't understand how the class treated her the way they treated her. i, for one, can't understand fully too. the whole thing seemed ridiculous n childish to me. it didn't had to be so unhappy in the first place. even if u r unhappy with the way a person behaves, why should u treat tt person badly too? by doint tt u r only being bad-er than the person.. n certain jokes r only funny the first time u hear them.. after tt they become nasty. not all jokes r meant to be permanant if u noe wat i mean.

yea.. so at the beginning.. she was still quite nice abt it.. she tried to change the way they liked her to be.. but the class remained nonchalent.. she still wasn't accepted. n then there were the many otehr unhappy things in life tt stringed up together.. one whole nasty ball of things.. it made her miserable. n she changed.

she no longer cared abt how others tot abt her.. she became fiery-tempered.. somehow my relationship with her started breaking down with her at some pt.. we cld no longer communicate like before.. she said tt i no longer understood her.. i dunno.. maybe it's true.. i can't stand the way she flares up at every little thing.. i can't stand the way she treats others who have not done anything wrong to her when someone else makes her angry. i can't stand the way she talks as though the whole world has done her wrong. i can't stand the way she accuses me of not listening to her when she doesn't even listen to me too. n i can't stand the way when time n again i try to care but she never listens or seem to notice at all. i can't stand the way tt she thinks tt she's always right. there was really one pt of time when i totally couldn't stand her anymore. but deep down i knew tt i still missed the old her.. i nv forgot how she helped me thru' when i was down. but i really couldn't get thru' to her anymore.. i misunderstood all her intentions n all the things she said. i lost my temper n quarrelled with her so many times when we couldn't get across each other. i quarrelled with her when i tot she was flaring up for no reason again. until one day i became tired of quarrelling.. so i juz put up with everything n kept quiet. i started thinking abt the gd old days when we talked til late at nite.. how she used to console me when i was down.. how she always helped me up.. n up til today.. even when our relationship seems strained.. she will still b arnd to care for me when i nid help. i still regard her as a very good fren. but somehow.. everything feels different already.

then there was monday morning that changed everything.. i guess i was being harsh n insensitive... but i didn't said all those stuff for notting.. maybe u'll become angrier after u read this.. maybe u will nv talk to me or look me in the eye again.. but i still wan to say this.. n i dun hafta noe u well to say this.. if u really wan to live fully again..u duneed anyone to gif u a chance.. all u nid is a chance from urself..a chance to stop looking at things so pessimistically.. a chance to stop blaming the whole world for being miserable.. dun care anymore abt those who wouldn't gif a damn abt u.. dun say u're not caring abt them already now..cuz if u dun care..u wouldn't kp flaring up at them.. juz let them do wat they wan to do.. n juz let urself do wat u wan to do...n being sensitive to the others arnd u who care of cuz..

but still.. i guess i was v insensitive for saying all tt on monday.. but i'm nt saying all tt cuz i dun like u or wat.. i still love u as my fren... it was juz... i dunno wat.... argh. i wasn't angry with u or wat.. i guess it was sort of frustration i guess.. frustration at being ignored n stormed offline while i'm making an effort to understand.. it's nt the 1st time.. i'm really sorry.. i hope u dun tink i'm backstabbing u too.. i'm juz typing all these now..hoping u'll understand why i say all those things i said.. i still treasure u as my fren and miss having u arnd... really... yea.. hope u'll b really happy again one day... =)

hUitiNg stRange... 6/01/2005 03:06:00 PM

Sunday, May 29, 2005

ok so super long nv blogged le.. try to gif detailed update.. but yea.. idea is there...

23rd may, monday
went back to sch for cs again.. forgot wat we did oso le.. haha.. yea tink we went out to queensway there to look for xiaoxin's costume.. hip-hop de.. quite cool... =) hahax.. yeapz. then helped yuyu to dabao @ AV. yea. quite tough oso.. yeapz! but was fun laa.. haha.. then cs ended quite late i tink.. arnd evening..late considered we spent e whole day there la.. haha. yeapz. then met dar.. went to esplanade there for dinner.. he wanted go glutton bay but too many ppl le.. then i in a hurry go my cousin's place for tuition.. so ended up at marina sq there de foodcourt =X ahahas. then saw bert! ^^ heex.. after tt was on the way liao.. then cousin called said duneed go le la.. cuz he scared i v tired le then still haf sch nxt day.. =X went home...

24th may, tuesday
normal sch day. so happy.. got to go sch with dar in the morning cuz like v long nv go with him le cuz he still recovering then tking car most of the time oso.. yeapz. then uhhh.. so suay... sprained my leg during pe. up til now still got ppl asking me how i sprained.. seriously i do not know. so u can stop asking liao... hahah.. i only noe i playing handball.. then i jumped up to shoot the ball into the goal. then the nxt thing i noe.. there's this sharp pain n i'm sitting on the floor... yea~ ^^ haha i dunno is i ownself nv land properly or jiayi acc tripped me la.. but yea... the idea is there.. damn painful. n damn funny. haha... they were like trying to get me back to the gallery cuz like quite faraway n i can't walk n all tt.. so yea.. they were discussing all the st. john n fitness first aid course blah stuff they learnt.. all the diff. kinds of lifts... hahaha... then vic n phy was like make me lie on their hands or sumthing lidat.. so my vision was like facing the sky liao cnnt see anything else.. then the nxt thing i knew they lifted me up n started walking.. all i saw was zig-zag zig-zag... ahahas. so funny laa.. like those u watch tv then they film the vision of a fainting person or wat.. blah. okaes. so they put me down after everyone else arnd got scared... then jess piggygbacked me back! hahaha... =) then yea all e ice pack n blah.. spray... bandaged. still can't walk normally altho didn't looked swollen. ok it's bandaged already.. then since tt day is 1/2day cuz mrs lim happy with sports achievements.. jun n pork juz 'two-man's lift'ed me all the day up n down all the classes n lecs... *thanx everyone!! =) yeapz. then dar sent me home in a cab.. then he was hungry.. so i cooked INSTANT NOODLES for him... wahahaha... so silly...eat instant noodles eat until so happy... :p then he was saying tt bowl of instant noodles dunno muz wait how long then can eat again le.. v nan de... lolz. ok out of pt.. =X yeapz. so he went off n my mum came home.. blahblahblah. at nite went to chi physician.. he said dunno wat happened to my ligament le... haha.. so cute.. gaigais unite! :p okaes i tink u'all tink i crazy le.. type until so happy.. haha.. =X no la of cuz i'm nt happy at all... =X yea could hardly walk..was damn painful.. swelled like balloon liao.. yeapz. so the doc lent me crutches... argued abit with parents n dar.. cuz they didn't wanted me go chevrons the nxt day.. but i tot tt i better go.. cuz yea responsibility n all tt.. not enuff ppl le.. so...

25th may, wednesday
took e stupid cab... super ex... all e way from home to je chevrons.. teachers nagged... =X blahblahblah. in the end slacked there n stoned for like 1/2 the day.. haha.. then v late le 7+.. they still rehearsing.. then teachers let me off first tell me go home rest liao.. =) yuyu deardear sent me to mrt station.. =) then dar waiting there for me! :) haha yeapz. then blahblahblah... dad fetched me at paris mrt... haha.. ^^

26th may, thursday
abandoned my crutches! heex.. cuz tot could like walk limpingly le.. cabbed to sch again.. nice cabbie.. gaf me his hp.. then say i can juz call him if i nid to tk cab again then bu fang bian flag cab.. cuz he lived nearby.. then he say wun charge dial cab de money.. :) yeapz. blablabla.. went off early at 6+ when they haven't started rehearsing.. had to go for treatment.. yeapz. uncle came to fetch me.. then went back home to fetch dad... =X then sumthing cropped up at his workplace there so liek he stopped on e way to made some calls.. then like.. quite serious.. n he had to go back.. but he insisted he dun wan go back.. muz wait for me finish see doc n send me home first.. then like.. cld really see he v frustrated le.. =( yeapz. long waiting hrs @ doc.. plus long treatment time.. hurt like hell when he pressed... punched holes in my toes.. then chided me abit for walking too much then swollen again le.. so made me go back to crutches.. =( went home.. then at carpark there.. uncle was fined.. cuz he underestimated the time taken then coupon nv put enuff.. =( then reached home mum still had to attend to me n all tt.. was the worse day tt day.. felt so helpless n like so burden everyone.. like @ chevrons they piggybacked me all arnd n like had to constantly pay xtra attn to me.. then come home also lidat.. n all the treatments n cab fare costing so much.. then ARGH. worse thing is doc said nid at least 1mnth+ 2 mnths b4 recover... ='( finally understood those dramatic tv serials.. where the wheel-chaired person will say like.. let me go n die la..i'm useless..i'm juz a burden... suddenly it didn't seemed tt dramatic anymore when it turns arnd n happens to u.

27th may, friday
cabbed to chevrons again. sat at the lobby cuz noone to help me up.. then meimei n shuhui walked past.. called out to them.. they didn't heard.. =X so i sat there n stoned.. then porkie they'all said they will b late ma.. so yeapz. called huishan she'll b late too.. said she'll help me call shuhui cuz i didn't haf her no.. yeapz. so they finally came n helped me up... =X yeapz. quite fun n all tt.. then helped put the makeup n blah... blahblahblah. then ermx. yea lo.. performance commenced quite punctually... not bad...tho not perfect.. =) owtenos came to watch.. heex.. gaigai they'all said itz nice.. ^^ n they said the costumes v nice... wheee~ ^^ ahahas. cleared up- abit n blah.. called dad n he came to fetch me home..

28th may, saturday
dad fetched me to chevrons.. minshan baobei gaf me a daisy!! yea~~~ i love daisies!!!! ^^ nafang gaf me a rose! wheee~ n shuhui a choc!! heex.. so nice of them.. later at nite ricola gaf me sort of a hankie with a msg inside!! heex.. so touched when i read the msg.. =) yeapz. the afternoon show was quite bad.. but there was v few ppl also.. then uhhh... like.. =X ok but nvm.. after the finale was taking photoes n all tt.. then dunno why felt so happy n bonded to cs suddenly.. then was singing yong qi n all tt tog... n so happy tt i cried... like so wth. =X okaes... haha nvm.. then yea.. v happy jiu dui le.. ate n prepared for the nite show.. tt one was fantastic!! ^^ bingyu was great..tianyi was great..shunkuang was great... EVERYONE WAS GREAT!! SENSATIONAL!!! so0o0o0o0 happy... heex.. =) yeapz. saw dar again.. surprise! haha.. yeapz. went hoem after tt while most of them went chalet for celebration... =(

wanna blog more.. but yea can't.. mum's nagging.. shall blog another day when she not at home.. muahaha. cya guys~ thanx for making me happy n taking gr8 care of me! :) *love ya guys! *muackz*

hUitiNg stRange... 5/29/2005 02:33:00 PM