Sunday, June 19, 2005
ok i'm nt exactly catching up with the latest online happenings... bleah? wondering wat i've been doing the whole week.. haven't been studying in particular..yet not palying too... ahahas. tink i was juz slacking? i dunno.. was tinking of cuming up with a wishlist... but am too lazy.. nwae.. rite on the top of the list was cutting my hair.. ahahas. then ahyi came up..she offered to bring those stuff to cut for me.. ok maybe she's not exactly a pro.. but yea.. so wat? seriously since my leg landed in tis state i haven't been giving a damn abt how i look anymore.. bleah. as in.. when u can't even move abt properly..u wun even gif a damn abt how u're looking.. all u wan is CONVENIENCE. yeapz. ttz it... yea.. so dun mind if u see me looking horrendous.. yea.... bleah. it sucks rotting at home.. i juz wanna get out of the hse so badly... stop rotting infrnt of my books n the tv... yea.. ttz wat i wan.. i wanna catch a movie too.. haven't done tt for almost 3mnths.. i mean.. three bloody months... ahahas. excuse me.. i feel the need to curse... muahaha. ok yea.. so wat exactly is my prob? yea... i juz wanna walk on my own again. urrrgh. i wanna walk arnd... move.. jump abt like b4.. i can't stand not being able to move abt freely.. depending on someone to help u move ur things n blah... so damn boring.. n so yea... damn burdening... argh. *shouts out in frustration* n i wan new clothes... someone bring me shopping? i got this urge to buy skirts! muahaha. tink i'm out of my mind... haix... wondering how my dear frens r all getting along... wondering if they r having a fun time out there... WALKING about. argh. wat's with me... bleah... no0t tinking properly.. juz typing watever my hands possesses me to type.. muahaha. okaes... had tuition juz now.. yea abit betta.. actually woke up today morning with ths sudden urge to b hardworking... aahhas. ppl realise we only haf one wk left? hahaa... n i'm so falling behind my schedule! okaes..so wat exactly haf i been doing at home?? beats me... *shrugs* heex... ppl jiayou k! actually i tink i can do it with a little extra more effort! lalala~ yeapz. feel like gg for consultation nxt wk.. with ms chan i mean.. altho i haven't done much to ask in the first place.. but yea.. juz dying to get out of the hse.. best if i can go tk the train.. i already forgot wat sleeping on the way to sch feels like... bleah. i'm nt making any sense here.. so shall stop here before mum nags the hell out of me.. yea.. shall go haf lunch n find new ways to rot... ahahas. oh btw... finally finished my antibiotics... FINALLY's the keyword. ahahas. my urine will no longer stink of penicillin... wheeee~ ^^ okaes... now i feel so lavender...whee~ so happy... ahahahs. tink ppl if u manage to survive reading uuntil here u'll prob tink i'm a butcase... ahahas. adios~~ enjoy the remaining hols n work hard!! =)
hUitiNg stRange... 6/19/2005 12:47:00 PM
Have you ever missed someone and felt terrible
because you think that he doesn't miss you?
Missing someone is a terrible
but at the same time, sweet feeling.
You will be sitting around wondering
if you meant anything to him.
Thinking if he ever cares about you..
Rushing to the phone
once it rings hoping that it's him.
Looking out of the window hoping
that he will surprise you by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television
but thinking of him,
missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed,
thinking of the last time you when out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be
to sit under the stars again,
talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet
hoping to see him online.
When you realise that he isn't online
and did not return your page,
you will start worrying if he is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes you to loneliness.
It teaches you how to cope with being lonely
and let you know that there is actually a feeling
known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
You know that you really care
and you indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him.
But missing someone and not knowing if
he is feeling the same is terrible.
You feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone
become jealousy or paranoid.
If you are the one being missed
and you know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
=)
hUitiNg stRange... 6/19/2005 12:45:00 PM
