Thursday, October 20, 2005
Hmmmm… dunno why I suddenly so sad.. yeapz. Lunch wif falala tmr is cancelled.. think he got something else on le.. bleahh. So sad rite… I told mummy I lunching out le then he told me dowan meet le.. =( so I dunno how to settle lunch tmr.. usually will juz settle for cup noodles or something de.. but dunno why dun feel like eating cup noodles le.. really was looking forward to lunching out de.. like got de shut at home so long liao de feeling n finally can lunch out with a fren.. doesn’t matter who the person is.. juz wanted to lunch out.. then now dunno how to settle lunch tmr liao.. bleahhh. Like dun feel like asking anyone else out.. cuz like.. mummy’s curfew yea? Then she dun allow me to go out too early oso.. so like.. will only b meeting for lunch.. n most ppl either leave too far away or wun purposely come out for lunch ma.. so yea~ hmmmm… nvm lo.. will juz hafta settle it myself I guess… =X
Yea.. as I was saying juz now.. was very sad.. actually i still am sad now la.. haha… but feeling abit happier.. cuz like.. ytd was complaining to my bro printer not working.. then he was like saying.. like go install myself lo.. then I told him I tried liao but didn’t worked.. even after put in the installation cd.. then he say.. duneed cd de ma.. then I say dun put cd oso cnnt work.. then he very irritated then juz said ‘too bad laa,,’… then juz switched on the comp now.. n turns out he installed it for me already!! =) heex.. so nice of him.. always sounds so irritated when ask him do this n tt but will still do after tt de… yay~ ^^
Hmmmm feeling abit bleah-ish now.. dunno why.. was still feeling quite high today morning de.. now really feeling quite sad…. =’( mayb mood swinging ba.. haix.. =( ermx.. if i sound moody n irritating sorry lehx.. pls dun tk it to heart ok? =)
hUitiNg stRange... 10/20/2005 09:03:00 PM
haha this blog is courtesy of james... i dunno wat story u wan but these r the few stories tt i filtered out haha.. n the last story is somewhere from my ex-blog de i tink.. but couldn't find it n got so fed up of searching so ya.. took t from someone else's blog.. haha... enjoy~ if it's not then tell me i try search again lo... i tink the tree leaf wind story is nice tho... yay~ ^^ pls tagggg ok... haha.. THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY
If you see me walking on the road with
someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to
walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the
time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me
fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..
Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..
"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
walk
beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the
beauty that
stand before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear
your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch
you,
It was because you never gave me the
chance
You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...
WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...
SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE..
________________________________
My husband was an engineer. Since I met
him, he
was always an
unflappable rock in my life. I knew he always
had
his feet firmly
planted on the ground, and it seemed that no
matter what else went
crazy, he would be the one constant.
Three years of romance, and two years of
marriage later, I got tired.
He was the most unromantic man I know. He
never
bought me flowers, he
never
surprised me, and nothing changed in our
marriage.
After some time, I finally found the courage to
tell
him that I wanted
to leave him. He just sat there, speechless.
My
heart froze... what
kind
of man was I married to that didn't even know
what
to say to make me stay?
After a while, he spoke, "What can I do to
change
your mind?". "I will
stay if you can give me a good answer to this
question," I replied
coldly.
"If I asked for a flower that grew on a cliff, and
you
knew that
getting it for me means certain death, would
you
get it for me?". His
face grew
troubled.
"Can I give you an answer tomorrow
morning?" he
asked. Hearing that
kind of answer, my heart died. I knew that I
could
never be happy with
a man who couldn't even give me a answer
straight away.
The next morning, when I woke up, he was
missing. In the living room,
under a warm glass of milk, was a note. My
eyes
grew misty as I read
it...
"Dear, I have my answer. I will never pick the
flower for you if it
meant certain death. But before you leave, I
hope
you can give me a
chance to give you my reasons....
You will always sit in front of the computer
and
type
about for the
whole day, but everytime you will end up in
tears
cause your formating
will
always go all over the place... I need my
fingers,
to
do the formating
for you, so your tears will become smiles.
You like to travel, but would always get lost... I
need my eyes, so
that I can bring you to the nicest places on
earth.
Everytime you leave the house, you would
always
forget your keys... I
need my legs, so that I can run home to open
the
door for you.
You never knew how to take care of yourself...
I
need my hands to help
you get rid of the pesky white hair you hate so
much when you grow
old, to
trim your nails, to feed you.
So you see, that's why I can't pick the flower
for
you. Until I find
someone who loves you more than I do, I will
need
my body to take care
of you.
If you accept my reasons, then open the door,
where I will be waiting
with your favourite muffin."
With tears streaming from my eyes, I opened
the
door, and there he
stood, with a extremely worried look on his
face.
He still had nothing
to say, but just stood there waving the packet
he
had in his hand in
front of me. And then I knew for a fact that I will
never find another
man who will ever love me as much as he
does.
Just because someone doesn't love you the
way
you want them to doesn't
mean that they don't love you with all they
have
__________________________________________________
Tree, Leaf, Wind & Love . . .
People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a
lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good
figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I
liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that
I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was
also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I
was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't
have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her
accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I
have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my
second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled &
said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen
like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that
day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry
in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like
her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However,
I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and
walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking
with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know
deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that
day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break
up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting
together..
I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the
School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once
I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How
many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her
presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my mobile. It said, "Leaf's departure is
because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf..
People call me Leaf..
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as
buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a
feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme
limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide
my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he
loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new
girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect
that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me
so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his
likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a girl, to ask him.
Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany
him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because
of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue
waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me.
He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing
in my heart.
I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left
the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask
her to stay..
Wind..
People call me Wind..
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree,
so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I
first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new
school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing
soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone
or with her friends, looking at him.
When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked
at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit.
Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain
the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not
there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior
scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a
note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled &
accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to
leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she
started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that
the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one
day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If
I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win
her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small
ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply
from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you
didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could
n't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly
changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.
During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask
herto stay...
Moral..
In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you
love yourself.
There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person
has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be
happier if we let go..
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine?
When we kiss?
This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want
to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the
world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those
who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only
they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our
lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's
when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin
to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love
fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never
have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand
back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn
about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a
lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but
how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you
let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward
tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever..
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's
available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste
on just someone . . .
hUitiNg stRange... 10/20/2005 12:00:00 PM
lalala~ juz diiscovered another jing tian dong di thingy ytd... hahaha... JAMES READS MY BLOG!!! wo0o0o h0o0o0o~ ahahas. so interesting... the LEGENDARY james actually read MY blog!! ahahas. okok.. i go look for the story u wan for u later k.. haha.. *waves~ pls tag... ^^
oh ya... was suddenly thinking abt the sas guys ytd.. dunno why.. haha.. guess was cuz huiyu kp talking to me abt bran n james.. then at nite i still go msg dotty to scold him tk photo oso wan be dian deng pao... ahahhas. so funny... then was thinking tt time morning always tk bus tog with huiyu n them.. so nice.. =) tink dotty was the 1st non-owtenos i got to know.. then aaron then victor then garrel n blah... haha.. dotty is the "he so kpo of cuz know everyone la.."(quoted from yk so u can go scold him..) ahahas... then aaron is the first person i see who can get naggier than yk.. lolx.. then erm... victor.. hmmm guess i wasn't v fair tto him.. bleahh. abit sad things ended up in this state.. until graduation he still doesn't wan to tok to me.. =( oh well... guess i hafta blame myself... hmmm... then garrel. is funny. he sits down n starts talking. n talking. n talking. n i mean TALKING NON-STOP. ahahas. n he cnnt resist suan-ing yk... hahahha... which is quite funny at times... hahaha... yah... he really doesn't stop tlaking until he stands up to leave again lo~ hahahha.... yea~ as huiyu n i often say... those IRRITATING sas guys. wahahaha~ can we go outing after A's? haha... like so sad.. nv go out as a grp with u'all b4... heex.. can can CAN? *excited tone* ahahas. watever~
okaes.. i forgot wat i wanted to say oso le.. haha.. oh yea... went for phys concultation ytd.. then wanted go gp mock after tt de.. but huiyu shedding her snake skin n i v sian oso.. so we hang arnd abit.. then went reading room do work while waiting for e rest lo.. haha.. then I GOT STUDY LO!! dun believe huiyu hor!! pls read MY blog before reading hers!! haha i really got study!! lolx. but got talk abit oso la.. hahaha... she told me alot of very funny stories.. lolx. then she hungry after tt so we went downstairs bot alot of snacks to eat lo.. heex.. then saw shuhui.. then she describe huiyu until v funny... beng beng tiao tiao de... hahaha.. then yah.. we study/chatting/eating halfway silas walked by then ended up sitting down n chatting with us... hahaa so cool~ then the rest came down.. then gaigai ernie dar me.. played black magic n johnny whoops... hahaha... then dar was SUPER FUNNY... he still go n shake shake shake lo..... ahahahs. n guess wat? ends up he knows abt the game liao but only entertaining us lo....... hahaha... almost strangled him lo... then yea... on the way home was intro-ed to jing lih... ernie's gf... hahahhaa... they r gg to kill me... but the intro was funny... hahaha... n i heard she looks like dotty's gf? hahahhaa... ok i conclude alot of ppl will kill me after reading this... hahaha.. yeapz. so went home.. n blah..
yayyy~ v productive today~ lalalalala..... ahahas. so high... i dunno why... hehe.. suddenly feel the sense of urgency to study.. haha.. dunno why.. oh yah.. toon gg to b commando wor~ yea... according to FABIAN... they chose him bcoz of his BUILT. haha ok.... hmmmm yah. hahahaha..... oh no.. i'm gonna b slaughtered again.... think i'm self-entertaining... ahahas. n falala shall b commando too after lunching with me tmr!! hahah... cuz i bring him luck ma~ -nehh- lolx... yayyy~ so high... ahahas. suddenly feel like playing gb!! lolx. but shall control my urge n play after A's.... lalala~! not like some PPL... play DOH-TAH everyday~ hahahhaha... oh btw... i tink FIR-ST-DAY sounds nice!! ^^
hUitiNg stRange... 10/20/2005 11:28:00 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
haha ok zzz... can't blog with my accnt as usual... told bro liao but he doesn't really care so shall cont' invading his accnt lo... -nehh- heex...
big news big news!!!
today is the record breaking earth shattering jing tian dong di day since 24th may..... I WENT JOGGING!!! muahaha. finally uh... hahaha... since tt time tore ligament n blah then nv jog until now liao... then juz now went to jog... bleahhhhhhhhhhh. almost threw up... hahhaa... but gaigai says her coach says.. run until wan throw up means is zui gao jing jie liao~ wheeeeeee..... so i presume i did a pretty good job! ahahas. ^^
hUitiNg stRange... 10/17/2005 09:01:00 AM
