Saturday, January 07, 2006
yea~ went out with bert mab lj shuwen chongyi after work today... so nice~ v happy today!! yay~~ ^^ n i learnt how to walk from orchard mrt to far east!! yay~~ haha i know i sound stupid..but it's quite a feat for me ok... muahaha.
wooo.... he went in today liao... lalala~ n i juz realised something this afternoon... i have 27 more days top wear heels!! ahahahas. so out of pt.. yea.. nwaae.. was hugging him gdbye at the interchange.. n suddenly melv juz walked past n started crooning "awwww... so sweet"... -_-''' talk abt maluating.. haha wanted to scold him after tt but he fall in le then i oso late for work le so juz left le lo... haha.. =)
dear dun worry for me.. i'll tk gd gd care of myself... heex.. u tk care too! ahahas. not like u can see this nwae... ahahas. yay~ i learn how to walk from orchard to far east today!! heex.. r u proud of me? lalala~ nxt time i bring u there ok... hahaha. so bo liao~ gd nite! =)
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i tink i haf a moronic dad... as in.. he's not mornic to me.. he's juz moronic to my mum... but tt still makes him a moron. urrgh. now u know why my top 5 conditions for an ideal bf includes no MCPs... haha. not v funny nwae.. i juz detest the way he treats mum n shout at her.. n yea.. i figure he will start yelling the hse down tmr after i come home with my rebonded hair........... watever.
hUitiNg stRange... 1/07/2006 10:27:00 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
haha looking at my previous post i realise i sound like a wimp.. =X but nwae.. laugh if u wan to.. i'm juz saying all i feel n nid to say.. but yea.. mayb i shldn't haf said THAT much.. haha cuz look wat happened today.. lolz.. but i sort of expected it after wat u said ytd la.. it was a sooner-or-later thing i guess.. n yea.. i'm willing to respect ur decision n i shall b understanding n do my part too in the mean time..
i promise u that i'll learn how to b strong.. n i'll learn how to be more independent.. n most importantly.. i shall learn how to stop getting lost!! haha.. i'll try to mk up for the time lost with my frens n family too.. try to spend more time with them.. i shldn't neglect them.. in other words.. i'm gonna change!! n i wan to mk darling proud of me when he sees me 4 wks later!! ^^lalala~ in case u haven't figured out after reading for so long.. yea.. we're breaking up tempoararily for 4wks.. dun ask why.. i'm lazy to repeat stories.. haha.. talk abt irony.. was sms-ing gaigai.. then was telling her.. single life also quite nice n how i will miss being single at times too.. haha now i got my wish come true.. lalala~
ok i'll b lying if i told u i'm not sad.. but yea.. after lunch juz occupied myself with the stupid comp n typed non-stop until 6.30... then got everything sorted out liao.. we r breaking up so tt we'll become closer again... so we'll be fine.. i'm sure we're going to cherish each other more after we pull thru' this 4 wks.. so i'm willing to accept it n enjoy my single-ness for now.. haha
n yea.. hope u change to a REAL MAN too after ur ns!! muahaha. sounds offensive.. but i'm juz saying the cliche stuff tt ppl say to guys gg into ns.. haha.. yea.. the same goes to any other guy reading this.. haha.. all the best!! =)
hUitiNg stRange... 1/06/2006 08:35:00 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
hmmm me ish sick.. =( down with a flu since tues... n kp OT summore these few days.. then today really cnnt tk it le.. so left work early n dar pei me to c doc... then went home n slpt... feeling so much better now.. =)
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hmmmm i dunno wat to say.. thanks for pei-ing me to the doc today.. really v grateful.. =) n i dunno why u came to such a decision... i nv even say anything... =X but nwae... ok.. mayb this is a gd time to really let us reflect on this whole thing.. jiejie's rite.. we really got communication breakdown.. n i admit it's not totally ur fault.. it doesn't help tt sometimes i kp everything to myself until it overflows n i flare up at one go..
i believe many ppl reading this will know the story abt how we started off... n i believe no one will argue if i say that u were the one who fu chu more in the beginning.. everyone said tt it was obvious how u loved me more than i did.. everyone told me tt having a bf like u is wo san shen xiu lai de fu.. haha... so funny to think back abt it now.. i rmb everyone was so envious of me..they told me tt u r too unbelievably sweet n all tt... hahaha.. i suppose nobody ever voiced it out.. but everyone felt the same way: if this r/nship ever come to an end.. it muz b ht who dumps him... hahaha... rite??
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i dunno how it happened... but i guess getting tog with victor only mk me realise how badly i fall without u standing by my side.. i guess when u were wooing me i sort of took u for granted ba.. n when u weren't by my side..i suddenly became so lost n ended up so badly hurt.. i guess i was too impulsive n childish then... n it hurt everyone to an extent tt can't b healed now n i'm very regretful abt it.. i'm juz hoping in a few yrs down the road both of u can start talking like before again.. but i dunno if it will ever happen again.. =(
nwae.. as i was saying.. at one pt of time in our relationship, something changed.. mayb it was bcuz i became too dependent on u.. but life started to b hard whenever u weren't arnd.. esp when u took care of me when my leg was injured... but watever it is.. it changed me.. i guess i became selfish.. i didn't want to share u with anyone else.. i wanted all the love n attn for myself.. n i guess it made me quite a bitch. for sometime i guess i sensed the change in myself.. but i juz cldn't say wat change it was... until i sat down n started thinking abt it juz now.. when u told me u have not been a gd bf... i figured..neither have i been a good gf.. esp when i start pms-ing.. haha.. mayb i shld look for u again when i reach menopause... haa...
but then i dunno why.. i guess last wk's incident made me feel very insecure... i found it hard to trust tt u love me again.. n u might find it ridiculous... but i was really very badly hurt. n it made me realise how afriad i was to lose u... for awhile i wanted to tell u tt i want a breakup..n u shld b given the privilege to be tog with someone u truly love n care for.. but everytime the thought came into my mmind or when i wanted to start telling u, i wld juz break down n cry... the thought of losing u was too scary... i might appear tough to many..but i'm not at all. i have times when i am juz as vulnearble as any other girl... times like when i'm on the verge of losing someone i love n depend on so much..
thanks for talking to me juz now.. thanks for trying so hard to convince me tt u still love me... yea.. i choose to believe in wat u say.. n dun b so sure tt i'll b the one who's gg to dump u.. mayb in a few yrs down the road i'll b the one begging for u to come back.. u juz nv know..... =)
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i tink W is very wrong n stupid n selfish to mention everything n dig up the past at such a time... i'm not biased or standing on S side... but i seriously feel like kicking someone's ass...... kick some ass!! lalala~
hUitiNg stRange... 1/05/2006 08:04:00 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
i wan a
Panasonic VS6.
went to
singtel website check out the price during christmas.
$298. decided to wait for it to drop. went back to
singtel website again juz now.
$438. freaking stupidd.
$298 was the christmas special. =X went to check out
M1 n starhub websites.
$298.
haha... wat's their problem?
hUitiNg stRange... 1/02/2006 07:38:00 PM
lalala~ went shopping with mum again ytd... bot more things... hahaha... she says i've spend like half of her bonus... oops. =x lalala~ shopping is nice.... n made me realise mum's e only person who's always by me when i'm sad... haha n i dun even confide with her... so ironic.. =)
yea~ today she mk nice food for me to eat... haha... then i help her clean up the kitchen... cuz she say like the floor alot of floor... so i tk e cloth n wanted to start cleaning... then she took the container with the flour inside, n want to tk out more flour to use... then the container dropped. n wooooo~ really alot of flour on e floor liao... ahahas. then we kept laughing. lolz..
then help her song huo to other relatives' hse... walked arnd myself... bot vcd!! haha... my sassy gf... v long wanna collect liao... haha.. den was like buy one get one free... so any how choose another vcd lo... ahahas. came home n watch. juz finished watching... so nice~ ^^
lalala.... later got campus superstar... muahaha.
oh. yea. juz now was sitting on the toilet borl. trying to shit. then suddenly tink abt e sec sch day... n started missing the 8e so badly.. =( how they used to ying chou tis silly girl here n meet up at e balcony there every morning to memorise the ci yu shou ce... then pei me rao zhong zheng hu.. guess they r the ones who truly understand me.. n the ppl whom i can really b crazy n myself with... the 7.5 girls i will miss... =) haha hope somebody doesn't see e 7.5 lolz...
ladida. life's boring... n so is work. i've nv been more bored since work started. ahahas. ultimate sian-ness.... lalala~ n i'm gg back tmr... hahaha... in JEANS. yep. no more skirt....or else i'll freak out again haha.
so long.. =)
hUitiNg stRange... 1/02/2006 06:57:00 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
happy new yr to all~
tho i had a totally unhappy new yr's eve... apart from the niang dou fu n meeting mab... i've got notting to comment abt e rest of the day...
cuz i've reached the tip of the volcano n errupted... hurray~ wat more can i say?
hUitiNg stRange... 1/01/2006 10:20:00 AM
